A nightmare

I really trying my best to handle this feeling

I dunno this called stress or tension

But the thing i know is

I really hate this feeling

Just kill me to save me from this

Finally i understand why those university students commit suicide while having their studies

Finally i understand what does my seniors mean about the university's stress

Finally i know why my seniors say it is good to join Buddhist society

Finally i feel those feeling

really can't describe it

Soo hard

I really try so hard to handle it my dears

every night

my tears are rolling down my cheeks

every time 

i wish to shout out loudly to release that thing in my heart

Have a shower

just sit on the floor and let the water rolling down from my head

it is the only way to let myself feel comfortable

just let it be

I wish to drown myself in the water

can't hear can't see

just relax and think nothing

please TALK to me within this days

please ACCOMPANY me to face this night mare

please HELP me to go through this period

I really really trying my best to control myself from drowning into this negative mood

please 

I NEED YOUR HELP