Sunday morning

It is Sunday and i feel not so good
Not my body but is my mood, bloody bad actually.

My buddies are busy going out yesterday.We just have a small chat and have to end it.I feel the happiness just in  that moment.When i come back to the reality,i feel tension again.Seriously need a companion,just a simple companion.But it seems hard to have it.

I find my soul mate which i always find him when i feel bored or whatever.Yesterday,he was busy until no time to care about me.I am silent for the whole day.Like my friend say,to my dear soul mate ,i never had a crush on you so dun worry,you are just like my listener, every time I talk to you I feel better.

It's really tension that i am finding someone to talk to,just to avoid myself becoming crazy.I go up the staircase and knock on my housemate's door.He was a bit shock that i find him just for nothing.It is almost midnight and we are chatting bullshit .It's just extremely tension that i need someone to talk to.After that ,he go out to buy supper as our stomach has sounded loudly.

It is 2am and i know it's really time to off for bed. Call my soul mate to get a Goodnight but he din pick up.Maybe he still busy i tell myself. Getting my phone in my hand and lying on the bed and watching the turning fan.I persuade myself to sleep eventhough i can't. I am scare to being sick as i am going back soon.

It is 2am something and i had a message from him.Call him just talk a while and we end the call.I still can't tell him the thing i wish to say out from my heart as he is still busy that time.I refuse to say as he has spoil my mood to tell him. That's why i can't sleep well the whole night.

It's Sunday morning now.My mood is bloody bad. There are so many things in my heart and now just lack of listener.He is busy enough that no time to care about me.Haih,what a day huh..

I should be stop facebooking and twittering.Just spamming my blog here.Just like what my friend say,i learn something from him.
Don't build beautiful dream up for people who request something from you.


As now i get nothing even i request so much.Just a simple companion i request for.